Monday, September 21, 2015
Fresh Starts & Training Log
Sunday September 20, 2015
A ) Mobility/stretching - 5 min
B) Squats: 5x20kg; 8x20kg, 5x45kg; 5x55kg, 4x65kg, 4x72.5kg, 2x77.5kg, 1x77.5 (Lb), 3x75, 3x75, 3x75, 3x77.5, 4x70, 4x70
C) SLDL - 4x78.5kg
D) Swissball plank - 2x 45sec each
Still lots of knee pain with the bar warmups and until I get to 55kg. Then it starts to get better. Put light Titan knee sleeves on then switched to SBD's for the last set of 75 & 77.5. Belt was loose. All of this is more mental than physical need I believe. But for now it's working until I feel I'm succeeding at this. Frustrating as I was starting to use the "L" word for squats before this baker's cyst.
AM weight - 76.1 - still up from Friday's sushi fest
29F
127C
98P
Tuesday, March 10, 2015
I'm Hungry
Hunger.
Mostly, it isn't about the tummy growls.
It's about the feeling of something 'missing'.
That feeling. Fullness. Contentment. Completeness.
Yet the more we have - big food, big houses, big cars, big 'stuff', there still doesn't seem to be "enough".
Every time I see someone carrying around more weight than they should, I don't see someone who is eating too much - I see a person that just can't get full enough.
Can't get that 'feeling'. And I know it well. Very well ;)
Most days I really have to stop and sit quiet with myself to figure out if I am physically hungry or just missing 'something'. My ability to just shove food in my mouth to stop from saying what I really want to say or to get that 'feeling' is pretty well documented in my bedside journals.
Damn feelings!!! Ugh!
So how do I NOT eat my feelings?? I sit with them. I take the time to belly breathe, tune in to my body...and my heart...and my head. Drink some water. Wait half an hour. Pretty sure I have enough body fat not to die from real hunger in half an hour. I've calculated this out! Ha!
Then I trust. Myself. A big job...and still a work in progress ;)
...with much Love
Linda xo
Mostly, it isn't about the tummy growls.
It's about the feeling of something 'missing'.
That feeling. Fullness. Contentment. Completeness.
Yet the more we have - big food, big houses, big cars, big 'stuff', there still doesn't seem to be "enough".
Every time I see someone carrying around more weight than they should, I don't see someone who is eating too much - I see a person that just can't get full enough.
Can't get that 'feeling'. And I know it well. Very well ;)
Most days I really have to stop and sit quiet with myself to figure out if I am physically hungry or just missing 'something'. My ability to just shove food in my mouth to stop from saying what I really want to say or to get that 'feeling' is pretty well documented in my bedside journals.
Damn feelings!!! Ugh!
So how do I NOT eat my feelings?? I sit with them. I take the time to belly breathe, tune in to my body...and my heart...and my head. Drink some water. Wait half an hour. Pretty sure I have enough body fat not to die from real hunger in half an hour. I've calculated this out! Ha!
Then I trust. Myself. A big job...and still a work in progress ;)
...with much Love
Linda xo
Saturday, March 7, 2015
Do The Difficult
Some Ramblings from March 2015
It's been a difficult few days.
I took an exam that I have put off for 2 years. The mental self-doubt leading up to it was enormous but - I passed!
I lived through a training session that I doubted I was going to be able to finish. But I made it through and finished strong!
I tidied up my diet to do what I needed to do to get back into my weight class. Better to train at the weight I need to be on competition day than do a sudden cut and feel the effects at "Day Critical".
Threw out the last homemade chocolate chip cookie as it was headed for my mouth. Yes, yes I did!
Coming up this week:
- I will be driving somewhere I've never been in what is probably going to be less than stellar weather conditions.
- meeting people I've never met ( you may be surprised but this is a challenge for me).
- keep believing in myself, when despite the "wins" of the week, I still feel "less than".
What is YOUR difficult??
How does your difficult feel?
Every day is about stepping up.
To your potential.
To your what-ifs.
To your doubts.
To your feels.
To your starting line.
Start where you are. Today!
....with Much love,
Linda xo
It's been a difficult few days.
I took an exam that I have put off for 2 years. The mental self-doubt leading up to it was enormous but - I passed!
I lived through a training session that I doubted I was going to be able to finish. But I made it through and finished strong!
I tidied up my diet to do what I needed to do to get back into my weight class. Better to train at the weight I need to be on competition day than do a sudden cut and feel the effects at "Day Critical".
Threw out the last homemade chocolate chip cookie as it was headed for my mouth. Yes, yes I did!
Coming up this week:
- I will be driving somewhere I've never been in what is probably going to be less than stellar weather conditions.
- meeting people I've never met ( you may be surprised but this is a challenge for me).
- keep believing in myself, when despite the "wins" of the week, I still feel "less than".
What is YOUR difficult??
How does your difficult feel?
Every day is about stepping up.
To your potential.
To your what-ifs.
To your doubts.
To your feels.
To your starting line.
Start where you are. Today!
....with Much love,
Linda xo
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